Under Pressure

There are things people will do under the pressure of competition that they wouldn't normally do.....

and sometimes...

sometimes.


They Break.

God, I Miss You Today, Girl....

"You put the fire in my cheeks.
Speech won't come.
My ears ring.
Blind to all others,
I sweat and I stammer.
I am a trembling thing, like grass,
and inch from dying.
So poor I've nothing to lose,
I must gamble."

~ Sappho

Psychosis Part 2

Yep. Still got it.

She'll be back. She's got some stuff to work out right now, some things to prove, but she'll be back.
She loves me. She'll realize that.
I give her a couple months, maybe.
She'll come back.
And I'll be waiting.

Because I believe this is true.
I absolutely believe with all my heart that this is true.

We are meant to be together.
We will have a happy ending together.

...And it would appear...I have completely lost my mind...

Crying

I woke up at 3:00am crying.
Just sobbing. It was awful.
I was sad. Very very sad.
But I'm not sure about what.
Her? Am I sad about her?

I Give Up. You Win.

That's it. I just give up.
There's nothing left in me to fight this with.
Let it just wash over me.
Let it take me under.
I'm done.
You win.

More importantly,
I lose.